I fell in love today. It’s not the first time this has happened. I recognized the signs, and I fought back. Love is messy and carries burdens. For me, it was an argument between logic and emotion. Not to mention, my absolute belief that the focus of my adoration did not merit my emotional response.
How dare he invade my safe world? Within my cocoon, I had complete control. Every response was measured and tethered to my sensibilities. I had no urge to giggle or resurrect the foolish girl I may have once been. Love had no room in my carefully orchestrated life.
Did I inadvertently lower my guard? No, I think not. But somehow I unlocked the gate and stood at the end of the path expectantly.
Until the moment he appeared, I thought I was immune to love. If ever I imagined the scene, or penned the script, my lover would pull up I a Harley, looking every bit the image of Jimmy Dean or Redford, or for that matter Newman in ‘Sting.’ Not once did I imagine he would simply stroll-up to my door and assume I was available.
Maybe, the surprise attack was what made me vulnerable.
I thought I had experience; a jaded, brittle chick who’d walked that path and recognized road hazards. I can’t explain it. Should I try?
The difference between logic and emotion is sometimes equivalent to the thin line that separates fantasy from truth. Using real life experiences in translating a documentary, arouses emotion and transports a reader into a sphere of memories. The minute a writer taps into an artery, an emotional response, the reader is engaged, connected and is fair game for the next sentence.
I suppose I should be annoyed, angry at myself that I was played for a fool, but today, I fell in love—with a writer—and I believed every word he wrote.
♦ Essayist, commercial copywriter and published short story writer Jade regularly demonstrates her ability to accurately assess writing talent as Page & Spine's Senior Story Editor. Her compassion for new writers is counterbalanced by her direct, often cryptic responses to submissions she does not favor.